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#1
Posted 22 October 2008 - 01:29 AM
Well Ive found out she cut off everyone she knows (including me) at same time then attempted suicide a few days later......
A bit of treatment and rest later and shes come crawling back.
She explained and i qoute "I dumped you so that youd stop loving me and then i could go and kill myself and not feel guilty that im hurting others doing it"
You can imagine my shock!! Sure i understand the twisted logic having been suicidal myself in the past BUT i would never dump someone or cut people off specifically to go kill myself!!! Thats just something you dont do!!! People cant just "stop" loving or caring about someone after a few words!!! its just not that simple!!! and id of thought a 24 year old mother of two would know that!!! I knew she was mentally immature for her age but didnt think she was that bad!!!!
Now she wants me back and has said sorry and is getting help, but im unsure about taking her back. Shes still clearly in love with me (and i am in love with her too but also feeling hurt) and very apologetic and promises never to do it again. BUT Im not sure she will go further in treatment than just a "plaster" to cover the mental wounds (thats all CMHT's will provide these days if you seem to be coping). So im not convinced that she will have the control to resist the impulse to dump everyone again in the future and do similar.
The kind side of me says to give her a second chance as it might work out fine and a good relationship will do me loads of good in social skills, self esteem and mental wellbeing, the other side of me says i dont need the emotional baggage when ive got my own problems and that id be better off seeking a emotionally stable partner.
So my dilema is what to do.
#2
Posted 22 October 2008 - 02:28 AM
Good Luck in whatever u decide though....
#3
Posted 22 October 2008 - 03:50 AM
Being human our hearts often rule our minds.
#4
Posted 22 October 2008 - 06:51 AM
I suppose it comes down to whether you feel strong enough to take her on (sorry that is an awful turn of phrase but you know what I mean). One of my best friends is in almost exactly the same position as you. Why the hell do us humans make life so complicated for ourselves?!
Take your time and hope it works out for the best whatever you do *hug*
Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen
Nancy & Vix
#5
Posted 22 October 2008 - 07:03 AM
I suspect you already know what you want to do. Is it the same thing as you think you should do?
YOu have a (half baked, speaking for myself) support network on here, some with experience or knowledge of mental illness and even suicidal thoughts so at least you have a back up.
If you do love her though you will take her back no matter how destructive it is likely to be, we all do it when the L word is involved. (Love, not lesbian Matt!)
Whatever you choose to do remember you are your number one priority!
Good Luck with your decision mate.
#6
Posted 22 October 2008 - 07:52 AM
Good Luck with your decidion - sure it will be right for both of you.
Zara
** Zara & FRP#014 **
#7
Posted 22 October 2008 - 07:57 AM
It's a hard decision you've got to make. Do want to get back with her for the right reasons, would she try again, do you Need & the extra worry that she might give you. Maybe it would be better to not even think about getting back together for at least another couple of months - a 6 month break.
Good luck in your decision, >hug<
Ann
#8 Guest_Tiggr_*
Posted 22 October 2008 - 08:14 AM
It works, and works well.
Try relate though, or your CPN. The "caring" side could go bad if you both spiral, and then you feed off each others depression. So on that score, she needs proper assesment, to determine what her triggers are, and what she is suffering from. THEN you can think about getting close again.
Why not spend time getting to know each other properly, without the "relationship" baggage getting in the way. Lay both of your cards on the table, and talk about what YOU want from life. See how common the ground is. Then take it from there.
She sounds as fragile as you are, and that alone could be the basis for a brilliant future, but conversely a terrible one. Just take it one step at a time mate, and call if you need us
#9
Posted 22 October 2008 - 08:26 AM
what ever you decide may you be strong
#10
Posted 22 October 2008 - 09:24 AM
Does that worry you at all?
#11 Guest_Tiggr_*
Posted 22 October 2008 - 09:34 AM
3 weeks ago, I found myself back on the edge again. Sat talking to a copper at 3am, utterly utterly calm and collected. It never goes away, and you just have to learn to live with it. This is exactly what Warren needs to decide if he wants in his life. Its a commitment that is far stronger than marriage, as you become almost the guardian of that person. Get it wrong, and its far worse than a divorce.
Hence why professional guidance is the only way forward.
#12
Posted 22 October 2008 - 09:40 AM
Hope you are feeling better Matt and Warren!
#13 Guest_Tiggr_*
Posted 22 October 2008 - 09:47 AM
However things that need to be taken into account.
1) Warren has his diagnosis. He knows within reason what his triggers are, and can plan to some extent his life around them. ( you cant always know when you are going to go tilt, but you can learn to recognise the symptoms - I knew what was happening last time, I found myself somewhere safe to put myself, and called the help desk. They then informed the local plod, and we went through talk down. )
2) The woman concerned needs to face facts. She needs to understand what is going on in her head, and that requires contact with experts. Not us, not Warren for that. That doesnt mean he should not be part of her life, as as a fellow nutter, even if with a different condition, he has a better grasp than most of the public as to what spinning on a different axis means to daily life.
Good luck mate, just hang in there
#14
Posted 22 October 2008 - 10:32 AM
One concern I woul dhave is as Matt mentioned about the possibility of you 'feeding' off each other and things becomming worse, especially seeing what happened with my friend and her hubby who was diagnosed with depression. She had to try and be the strong one, but unfortunately it got a bit much for her and she ended up having about 6 weeks off work and was also diagnosed with depression too.
Just always remember there are people on here who care about you and are always here and willing to give help and advice or even just somewhere to vent if needs be
#15
Posted 22 October 2008 - 03:32 PM
True!!! trying to be rational can be hard!!! Rationally the "caring" side of me says to go for it, the self preservation side says run a mile!!! thats before getting into emotions!!!
Thats the problem, Im a soppy git and love her!!
She is more fragile than me in my opinion!
Im trying not to judge her by her problems but the person she is.
Daft thing is that before she had kids she was a social worker!!!!!! She knows the facts but her opinion of herself is so low she has loads of excuses for why things wont work for her because for some reason she is "different" in her eyes. She likes to believe we are all wrong and that she is right, and that its "normal" to want to kill yourself and attempt suicide! She does realise what she is doing when she has some rational thought but when she is really low there is NO rational thought and thats why she needs the treatment to stop her getting that low or to help her when shes too ill to help herself. Its trying to convince her to make the effort and not give up. She had to fight to keep her kids from ending up with thier dad and i said to her that if she really had given up then she wouldnt of fought it!!! She had to admit i did have a point!! Also when shes low she says the kids are better off without her to which i reply that if thats really true then why do you fight to keep them??? She again has to agree!!! Im trying to get her to understand that kids see everything and that eventually her being unwell will affect the kids. That way at least if she accepts help for herself purely for the kids then as she improves she'll learn to do it for her as well.
#16 Guest_Tiggr_*
Posted 22 October 2008 - 03:54 PM
Warren, trust me, it is perfectly acceptable. You have been there, so have I, and when the mind is locked into that set piece, unless someone can unlock it, then there is no argument that can be used to change that person.
Sometimes it is the subconscious taking control, and the base animal survival instincts kicking in, sometimes its a trained negotiator who knows how to find the anti triggers in your brain that can pull you back from the edge.
Whatever she is going through, it is not something that either she or the pair of you can deal with alone. ( and I'm waiting for someone else to read this as I type ). I've gone back to the clinic, having found out that the demons are still there, and am now back on the rails again. She needs to find that contact with professional care, before you end up picking up the bits with a shovel. Choice was yours, now its not. Regardless as to what anyone may now tell you, you and her are in this together. Walk away, and she jumps, and you will blame yourself. Stay with her and she jumps, and you will wonder what you did wrong. Either way, you will blame yourself.
That is why she needs the help, and you need proper advice. Someone we both know said to me once that there was no way they would acknowledge me if I had jumped. Think on that, and think about how you are going to cope with this woman. Do it for your own health, if not for hers.
#17
Posted 22 October 2008 - 05:45 PM
I dont want to try and sort her problems loads either as i dont want her becoming dependant on me to function effectively herself. IE i want her to choose to stay with me because she loves me not because im sorting all her baggage out!!!
#18 Guest_Tiggr_*
Posted 22 October 2008 - 05:49 PM
You must not become to much of a rock for her, but on the same score, you need to decide if you want this relationship or not. Reading between the lines, it does appear that you need her just as much. Volatile? Maybe. Fun? Well only you two know the answer to that.
One other point, are you ready to be a step father?
#19
Posted 22 October 2008 - 06:13 PM
I dont need her in any way except for the fact that i love her. Theres no rational need for me to have a relationship except to avoid loneliness or conform to social norms. But then love isnt rational...
#20 Guest_Tiggr_*
Posted 22 October 2008 - 06:15 PM
Never a truer word spoken